Choices

I thank God I do not need. Of course, nowadays, the first need that comes to mind is the need for financial security. So again, I am very thankful to God that I do not need; that I do not have to worry about food, clothes and shelter. I sometimes forget how blesses I am in that regard, because as a human being I am inclined to lose sight of what is right in front of me, and take ongoing, everyday privileges for granted. You are probably wondering what I am about. Here it comes.

I wonder... would I be this righteous and hell bent on doing the right thing if I have to worry about where my next meal is coming from? I was watching this TV series and one scene got me thinking: a poor many was being propositioned by this rich, ex-boss (since the guy was just forced into early retirement). He was propositioned to sign documentation for receiving company products worth 10 million Egyptian Pounds, while never actually receiving them, and getting two million pounds in return, and the consequent wrap for the crime. As the scene ended I wondered: how would I act if I were in that man's shoes? This is retired father of four, responsible for sheltering, feeding and clothing six people, as well as educating and marrying off four of them. Would I be as adamant as I am right now about doing the right thing? Would I be as crystal clear then, as I am now on what is right and what is wrong?

I am not 100% certain of my answer. Part of me hopes I never have to be, because honestly I am scared. I am scared that I will not be strong enough. I would like to think that I am. I would like to believe that if faced with a similar crossroad, and I am not at an advantage, I would still choose the hard path... the right path.

It is easy to choose when you have the upper hand. The true challenge, I believe, is when the odds are not in your favor, and you still have to choose. I do not wish this on anyone.